From The Album Dope Machines (2015)
Published by Little Tokyo (ASCAP)
Lyrics by Mikel Jollett
Something You Lost
She’ll never know, when she tells you goodnight,
The fear that you hide, as she lays by your side.
When you stand, all the faults of a man
Etched right in your face, still she lays there in place.
How the warmth of the garden you sowed.
Is the stuff of these bones, once broken and cold.
And you go home and you sleep in your bed,
Feel like your dancing in sync with the ghosts in your head.
And she wakes. You say, “go back to sleep,”
You dare never say, the greatest secret you keep
Is that you might be alone, that you might have to run,
That the rest of your life will be a series of nights
That you spend in your mind
Staring backwards through time
At something you lost.
And you’ll never be home. You’ll never be one
Eyes closed in the sun on a warm day in June.
But on the damp dirty floor of your wintry cold room,
You see her face in the dust. How it fills you up.
And you say “Hello. Hello.
Please don’t ever leave. Please don’t ever go.”
And you can call me a man.
It’s etched right in my face.
But it could never span
the endless expanse of space
all around us.
And just this one small home,
One brief moment of time,
The only thing I call mine
is this line that we crossed
And how it came at the cost
Of everything that I lost.